Fun fact: I used to be a stripper. I liked it. Till I didn’t. Stripping was a monster that fed the wound of shame and not belonging. It ate me up and spit me into that cesspool of disgust. Not belonging was a wound that had festered in my teen years as a ballerina, when I was never skinny enough, talented enough, or pretty enough. I became a walking apology. I started to get sick. My body and my life reflected the idea that something was wrong with me and I should stay small and quiet. Years of this and I wanted to die until....
I started hearing women's wisdom.
I read books and stories from the female lens and realized that I was internalizing shame that came from religious, patriarchal minds.
I decided to turn my shame inside out and tell my story. Give it meaning. Create.
I ended up birthing Dirty Me Divine, a one woman show about my secret life as a dancer.
I was terrified and electrified.
This was my first taste of turning poison into medicine.
DMD played to sold out theaters in LA as well as Boston and San Francisco. Self-expression, sharing my point of view, and spilling my secrets liberated my voice and body. I got stronger. I felt more alive. And I became aware of the power my voice had to impact.
I wanted this for other women.
I wanted circles and stages and retreats where women could have the life-changing experience of exploring, naming, and speaking their truths. Spaces where women could share their voice, write what hurt, dance their grief, and share their stories and be witnessed.
I studied storytelling, feminine spirituality, rites of passage work, and facilitation and began creating spaces for women's voices to be heard.
READ MY
LATEST WRITING
POETRY, STORYTELLING, AND RAW TRUTHS DELIVERED STRAIGHT TO YOUR IN-BOX
DIVE INTO MY WORDS
Burlesque was where I finally found freedom in my body and soul.
BALLET AND MARTHA GRAHAM'S MODERN DANCE WERE MY LIFE AS A TEEN
I met my husband when I was 21 years old.
I come FROM BABA YAGA LANDS. RUSSIAN IS MY NATIVE LANGUAGE AND ALTHOUGH I LIVE IN LA, MY SOUL BELONGS IN THE WOODS.